I don’t want to be
too close to you. I don’t want to get myself into that mess all over again. Just let me do all the work. You can sit back and continue what you’re doing. I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll get attached. Scared that I might be attracted to you. Just go away.
Everyone is doing cool fun things while I sit in my room chillin` here with my instant noodles watching Youtube videos.
It’s a quite horrific when I can catch up, or better yet finish, an anime in one day …
I can finally get to resume on my Walking Dead episodes now that finals are done! YES.
Happiness vs. unhappiness
It makes me happy when my local gas station owner knows me whenever I fill up gas.
It makes me happy when I make new but random friends at the supermarket.
I’m happy when I can talk about personal feelings to my co-workers at work.
I’m happy with the people I have in my life right now.
I’m content with the money I earn at work.
I love that I currently love myself and my body.
I’m happy that I got accepted to a college that I want to go to continue my education.
I’m troubled by the fact that I know my parents will not be happy even though I got accepted to somewhere where I would like to study.
I’m not happy by the fact that friends are creeping away out of my life.
I’m not happy about my brother’s attitudes and actions toward everything.
I’m not content with my lifestyle.
My parents are not happy with me being this skinny.
But my parents doesn’t want me to be fat as before.
What now?
Happiness versus unhappiness.
College hunting
Ever since junior year of high school, UGA has always been my dream school after I graduate from high school. I wasn’t the kid who aimed to go to Harvard or Yale, or any of those Ivy League schools. I was content with my grades, and therefore I should go to a school that I am content with.
And as I transition myself into senior year and things changed. People who I called them friends weren’t exactly my friends. I wasn’t as strong-willed as I was before in junior year. And then comes the money problem. Then here I’m thinking, will UGA really be a good school for me? Should I apply to UGA even though I have such low test scores and only rely on my strong GPA? I checked their list of majors. They did not have the major I want to go to, very broad to be precise. Should I still apply? But it’s a known school ….. I checked GSU and my major was found.
My friend applied to UGA. She got around 1700-1800 on her SAT. She got deferred. If I applied, then I will immediately get denied.
Then comes the yellings and screamings from my parents. Pretty sure everyone knows what is coming out of my parents’ mouth.
I applied to Gerogia State. Not that it’s not top-notch. Let’s say it’s like between Nutella and Wal-mart brand peanut butter.
And you know what, I got accepted to Georgia State. I called my best friend at midnight and told him the news. I was tearing up.
Even though GSU is between Nutella and Walmart brand peanut butter, I was happy. I’m not happy because they accepted me. I was happy because it will knock up so much opportunities. I feel that my major at UGA was a lot more broad and GSU was more specific.
Don’t go for the top-notch when it doesn’t even help out with your major. Adjust your college and your lifestyle with your major. Not adjust your major with your college. Let’s just say, I cannot be a good violin player if I go to Harvard or Yale.
YES.
Best day today.
Laughing hysterically with friends during the orchestra concert.
Reuniting with my best friend after.
Getting accepted to my college.
How can it get better than this?
Advice
Most people ask me advice on countless of things. From friendship problems to deciding which piece of clothing someone want to buy, I’m there for ya. And to be honest, I like giving advice. Advice that I personally experienced that is. Say if someone is having trouble in time management on homework, I know I wouldn’t be able to give advice on that because I personally have the same exact problem myself. But when it comes to friends and other experienced topics, I can talk hours and hours.
And when I give advice, I expect my friends to take consideration in it. Like at least think about it. I spend hours trying to give this one friend advice and she does the exact opposite of it a few days later. And now, her past with that particular someone is basically ruined.
At times, she comes texting/calling me and asks me what I should do about x, y, and z. Whenever she listens to my advice, it goes in one ear and out the other. She never exactly decipher what she needs to do. Whenever she comes to me for advice, I try to tell her what she needs to hear rather than what she wants to hear. That’s called ranting/venting rather than asking for advice, which is two different things. Hearing your own voice and vent your problems rather than explaining the situation and listen to what the other person has to say.
After a few times when she listens to my advice and does the opposite and comes to me again, (no offense) I just kind of slack off on my part. Why?
Because I don’t want to sit here and spend hours giving her (or anyone’s) advice and she never takes it to heart. That’s just going to be a waste of both of our time. So next time when you ask a particular someone for advice, actually listen.
There are just some people that’re rude as fuck and you know that sooner or later, they’re going get their ass run over. And I’ll be enjoying every second of it.
ARE YOU KIDDING? I bet if I was her, you would not respond, OH. JUST WAIT FOR A REPLY. Nigga, I ain’t not dog. Wait for your reply? Wait for your decision? I’m sure ain’t hell WAIT FOR YOU. Who do you think you are? Just wait for a reply. I’m so sorry, MAJESTY. I need to wait for your reply.
I hate you and I hate how you make me feel like the shittiest person ever.
You’re killing me, Supernatural. You’re killing me. Citizen Fang is probably my favorite episode. OH MY GAWD. If Benny die …………. no idea what I would do to myself right now.
omggggg
it’s so frustrating how my computer kept on being bipolar on me. like why are you not turning off? and why are you not turning on? i seriously do not want to buy a new laptop this early……… even though i have to sooner or later. but not nowwww. i’m so broke. with christmas shopping and finals, i am broke and stressed. and now another problem. just why. asdfgfdsa
